A Bridge of Broken Trust

When you think that you are being trusted at workplace, its time you take stock of the events...

Trust that too at work place..impossible dude..
Trust between peers..you think some one is ready enough to share his meal with you? Wake up..
But they do share a trust on certain platforms when it comes to sharing corporate gossip but never personal growth..
Just stick to this rule..and dont be fool enough..

Trust between lead/manager and you?...Lets start like this...

1. When the manager is trusting you so much, revealing some information, you feel one of the secret keepers of the team,that means he is trying really hard to know what is going on your mind..
He is concerned, are you leaving? Are you still happy with the appraisal?
That is because he is clueless with your responses at daily work.
You will soon find out he tries to ask you about the team and the team about you..

2. trust between managers/lead can only be professional...
manager :Yes this dude can do this work
reportees: My Manager shows concern in my work..

3. A reason big enough not to trust your manager is, "He is not the decision maker when it comes to your personal growth"... You may have bought Mt. Everest to you knees, but dude seriously you are expected to do so when required...So it never shakes the management..All they are worried is about "B"usiness and "R"evenues....
If Business is not doing gr8..no matter you made a TAJ MAHAL..you are bound to get rocks to eat..And your manager inspite knowing all about your work has to come back saying "It will be better next time"..
Its been more than 3 years...I have seen it all..They have no justifications for their action but they very well know how to get you motivated and seriously man they have a huge capacity to go ON and ON and ON for hours explaining why things went wrong and when they will be better..I have seen it all "graphs, career examples, economic growth, US economy" in such discussions and finally have realised..You have to be a heartless bitch to be a manager..No humanity, No dignity, No pride, Actively involved in crashing young dreams...Are managers..

You business did not do gr8...Bloody hell fire your business development guys....I am doing my job and i should get proper recognition..
But the bottom of the food chain cannot indulge in the luxury of "demands"....All they need is patience and climb up the ladder slowly..

So next time you hear stories of team from a Manager simply ask "What is it that you want to know from me"

Dooms day is here?

Not Exactly the doom's day, but a verge to extinction (thought the word is harsh, u will realise it eventually)...
Yeah People.....

Have you noticed from your toiling life what is happening around...
The eco balance has finally shown signs of rupturing..
A large chunk of Iceberg gone in seconds..I know many don't even bother the outburst of this event..What climatic changes can do to the living human celluloid...
Oil prices shooting..water going scarce..Recently i came to know that the parliament house of india does not get sufficient water supply forget that you will ever get luxury of 24X water forever...Ganges is drying..prediction says that sea level shall rise by more that 5 feet in 2010..
Some say next world war could be for Water..

Recently noted, highest temperature ever in delhi on march 30 in last five years..that tells you a lot..Are you really ready to face such tormenting days ahead in your life with streets you walk turn into sun burnt sand plates...And you thought you have a Car with AC , a home with split AC
, but tell me what will you eat and drink without vegetation and water..
Stop being so stupid..turn to green energy sources, save water, save electricity, save fuel as much as you can...
all is happening here right in front of your eyes wide shut to these..
yeah you will be successful..your name written in history..for what , you will be history in few years with no one left to read your story..
Save the Planet , Save the Homo Sapiens

Why it pained I’ll never want to know....

Why it pained I’ll never want to know...
(Willing Destiny)

Standing bright, in the hazy sunlight,
You came like a angel in golden twilight.

I knew I am there, but you were really not aware,
For resided in you someone and losing you I did not dare.
Merry was I with your company and glow,
Holding innocent hands with feelings to tell you more.

Came the day we parted and it snowed bad,
We went on the journey with whaterver memories we had.
I knew i was just a face for you I know,
But why it pained I’ll never want to know…

Days went by, I lived the dreamed era,
Till we met again with you untouched Aura.
So stunned was I, I thought I just lived in waste,
Oh Mighty, give me a another chance my heart paced.

You serenity touched me like shining divine,
And you did smile when I gazed you to be mine.
Distance parted, I still wanted to see you more,
But why it pained I’ll never want to know…

And spite in heaven and hell, felt together on unnamed road,
For heaven was your ignorance, and hell was my conscious abode.

We talked the world, as years went by,
Your cakewalk life and the rainy sky.
You never brought what together we might,
Never did I to hurt your smiling sight.

Friendship grew, became purple and warm,
Waiting to be red, together in arms.
I hate this word, starting with it is never right
It like wishing for the stars on cloudy night.
You never looked me as the person I wanted I know
But why it pained I’ll never want to know…

Your searching soul, for a mate of desire,
Felt like together we can see some fire.
But destiny’s will or my willing destiny,
You chose not me, but a fate’s mutiny.
Crashed my dream, your blissful ignorance will never let know
But why it pained I’ll never want to know…

Still you ask me beside, as i am your trust,
How can i breach it, for my feelings had never been lust.
I vow to stand for the memories left distorted,
Though it hurts like standing on broken glass carpet.

For all I thought I am happy but I am not,
For love is not sacrifice, it always pains a lot.
All the time I knew you never wanted it I know
But why it pained I’ll never want to know…

Satisfaction is Compromise

Wow..what struck me to write this heavily loaded discussion....
As one day fed up of my boring job i was pondering why am i so bored at my job....
It occurred to me that i am not that satisfied with my job, the challenges that the job brings..
Then i thought maybe i should not look up for any challenge in my job and maybe then i shall not feel bored and do my work as it is...bottomline i will be satisfied doing what i am doing...
and lo behold...it occurred to me...in order to be satisfied which i believe is a state of illusionary mental being people do compromise on many things in life...
And you will see around people who were ready to compromise on various aspects of life are the ones drumming i am satisfied with my life.. Nothing wrong..but my point is to be satisfied you have to let go/compromise on some virtues...
But by satisfaction i don't mean that you are content at your heart..If your satisfaction is a byproduct of compromise, something will always haunt you...I dont want that haunting to come again and again in life and i would wish of the lost opportunities just because i wanted to be disillusionedly satisfied..

So i have decided being just too young to compromise on my lookout for challenging jobs where you can learn more and more than that enjoy ur work, i need a contigency plan for the situation...
Is any body familiar what usually those plans especially if u r a software engineer? :)

Why have troubles and worries

And those great philosophers and psychologist thought that they understood the human mind /emotion or shall we say humans...
is it so? Then tell me sir, why is that inspite all human beings trying to be happy why is that they are surrounded by worries ?
They are happy in a relationship but have worries about the future.. they are very happy having a good life but then they worry over all things which many of the times are beyond their control..
parents worry about their kids first for education, then their behavior in teens, then their college, job, marriage, children's children.... why don't you just take a break from routine and be happy for the moment...things will fall together whether you worry or not..I am very happy and content with my life and i do not like any deviation from happiness to worries...I dont worry about me and not about others...Its a state of mind which i really dont want to deal..Does any other person wants to? I guess no..Then why create worries in your life and then in others....

God Damn it!!! Save the Earth

Its been a while i churned my thinking process, had been busy(lame excuse i know).
Well and as one day i was passing by office building i saw lots and lots of smoke coming out from the generator exhaust..And i looked around, all surrounding office buildings were generating this huge plethora of carbon dirt...It really made me shiver..I could just see the big hole in the ozone layer getting created in front of my eyes..
I was very aware of the active global warming events recently (so sad it seems the wave has died) and it made me think, what on earth these offices are spared for? I know there is huge electricity problem in the state, but wait a minute we have this huge dam generating enormous amount of electricity for the northern grid, still....i pity all of us...
In delhi the weather is really hot these days..i am sure 1-2 years more carbonizing of environment and we all definately wont need those logs to burn in a funeral, the sun will take care of our cremation...
Well i hope the govt really takes note of this and soon should provide some large scale environmental friendly power genration means...Be ready for "DAY AFTER TOMORROW"...
Any thoughts are welcome as comments...

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